friday; 11.05pm
Sometimes you lose. You lose because when two great opportunities are laid before you, choosing one over the other is a choice made at the expense of that other life you could be leading, it means that you have irrevocably given something up. Other times you lose because the other person across the court from you is simply a better player. Then there are those times you lose when you stretch yourself out too thin and bite off more than you can chew, because you think that will make everyone happy. But you really lose when you avoid what really needs to be addressed but inundate yourself with work instead. Whether it's the fact that you're losing touch with people or losing all sense of yourself you feel like you're drifting away. But it suddenly hits me out of the blue, that feeling like I've lost you all over again. And there's nothing I can do about it.
"don't be scared of what you cannot see
your only fear is opportunity
never wonder what the hell went wrong
your second chance may never come along"
-opportunity, pete murray